Wow, honestly when I wrote that last entry, shit was really going down. The problems that were fixed since then are directly relevant to my situation now and without getting into the specifics here, I just want all of you to know that you have to take things as they come. Don't slow your life down trying to please everyone and being the best. You'll be a better person for it.
That being said, numerous problems that I've had in the past are still very real today only now I can't attribute it to just some teenage insecurity. I'm an adult now and I have to accept the things I cannot change. It's a hard thing to do. I know it's irrational, wrong